I know you probably wouldn't guess it, but I played the mic in a local indie rock band once upon a time.
I didn't like the attention but I did like writing and singing with a mission. I had the ability to write lyrics that others would hear. I wrote about a variety of topics such as a friend's struggle with cutting, sibling conflict, and also my own adverse childhood experience with the boy down the street.
The One of Us: Sex, Violence, Injustice. Resilience, Love, Hope chapter titled "I Have a Secret" goes into depth about a one time "show me yours (or else)" situation. This one experience impacted me more than I ever realized. Not until I read the book Bitter Chocolate: Child Sexual Abuse in India by Pinki Virani in the spring of 2009 did I break down realizing how wrong that situation had been.
"I Have a Secret" was the second hardest chapter to write, only behind the chapter depicting the violent rape in 2010. It's raw, genuine, relatable, and brings to light issues we don't want to face yet hurt us and our loved ones the most.
Originally when I was writing after the 2010 assault, I added the below lyrics as a reminder that I had experienced trauma as a child. It was a reminder of how compassionate I had become towards others who had experienced adversity and how I wanted to support and empower others who lived through trauma.
Read the below and if interested, pre-order your copy through the Publishizer campaign found here. One of Us is a book with a mission that has already impacted the lives of individuals- we want a publisher to help us reach and impact more.
If you or a loved one experienced child sexual abuse and you would like to talk to someone anonymously, check out the hotline on Rainn.org - the people on the other end are trained to give you support, information, or a referral.